I need to get better about my writing. It's not that I forget about this blog, it's just kind of a personal space for me to get my thoughts and feelings out.
Tonight I am sad. Sad that our Moyamoya community lost another friend and "Moyamoya Mate". It makes me think about the friend that I lost to Moyamoya just 5 months ago. I miss her. Her family misses her so terribly. I remember her daily. I see her kids every day at school (I started a part time job at my children's elementary school) and I smile. I talk to them, tie their shoes and zip up their jackets and smile to myself knowing that she is saying "Thank you for looking out for my babies" from Heaven.
News like this also makes me anxious and nervous. Why did she die? Did we have the same surgeon? What is her history? CAN THIS HAPPEN TO ME? It really scares me to think that I could just not be here; for my kids and my husband. How terrible that would be for them. As a mom, you are the entire world to your kids...I don't even want to go there. It just scares me.
Rest in peace T. I'm so sorry that you lost your Moyamoya battle.
