I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 34:4

I am reading the book "Heaven is for Real" and all I can say is WOW!

I had to put the book down. I just finished reading the chapter where he tells his mom he has two sisters, telling her one died in her tummy. They didn't know the sex of the baby they had lost, and it was comforting to them to know that she was in heaven and doing well. She had felt the loss of a baby and grieved and felt guilty as well.

Not many know this but we have three angels in heaven. A few years before getting pregnant with Emily we went through IVF (invitro fertilization). Everything was perfect. My body did exactly what it was supposed to do, and everything looked really good. We had 3 beautiful embryos, I still have their pictures, that were to be our children. After a really bad transfer (of the embryos to my prepared uterus) they died. We believe they didn't have a chance as a lot of trauma was done to my uterus in the process of placing them. I saw the picture of all three inside of me and was hopeful, but it wasn't meant to be.

At the cemetery where Bruce's Dad is buried, they placed a heart sculpture very near his grave, with a mother and child inside the heart (It's hard to explain what it looks like) shortly after our failed IVF attempt. I released our three to heaven to be with Grandpa Larry, in his care, and placed flowers at both markers. This was my tribute to the ones we lost, even though physically there was nothing there. It brought me great peace to believe that they were in heaven with Grandpa.

This chapter in the book just hit home a little too hard. I hope that our three are in heaven together, playing nicely, waiting for the rest of us to join them. I can't wait to meet our three that were too beautiful for Earth.

Back to school time! :)

With the first week of school behind us, both older kids seem to be settling in well. My first grade daughter thinks school is awesome! My 6th grade nephew isn't quite to "awesome" yet, but every day is getting better. It's a new town, new school, new people, new friends...it has to be very hard, but he is handling it very well. He will be going on a 3 day class trip in a few weeks that should be really fun for him! I just hope he meets some nice friends that he can go out and play with. He's kind of shy (maybe lazy too) and hasn't made much effort in meeting people. I don't know if he knows it's just one year so why bother, or just no interest. I hope he meets at least one neighborhood friend.

My four year old starts Preschool this year. He's ready. I'm ready too! He's a headstrong boy, and at almost 5 years old, can be a pill most of the time. (Or a little turd, as I call him!). I am hoping that some discipline from someone other than myself and my husband will help him out. He pushes and pushes with us, which I know is his job to do at this age, but why does he have to be so darn good at his job???!!!

Sunday School and AWANA will be starting soon and I have all three kids signed up. I will also be helping with Sunday school preparation on Wednesday nights while they are at AWANA. I also signed up to help out in a classroom for Sunday school. Sounds busy, but it is all at a time that we'd be at the church anyway. Might as well volunteer my time to help out!

The end of summer is near. :( The forecast for today is 89* and then 65* degrees tomorrow, and then cooler, and cooler until it is, unfortunately, COLD! I will start the pool draining tonight and will have to get that packed up and put away for another season. Major bummer! We have so much fun in it! With the cold weather comes worries for me about my surgery scars and screws. The cold really affects it, and I get some pretty good headaches from it. I hate to wear a hat, but really have to here.